Tuesday, July 27, 2010

A picture says a thousand words

…but what do a thousand words say?

A wordle

Whitney sent me a Wordle of my blog which I think captured the essence of my life quite beautifully.

Tuesday, July 13, 2010

Do what you fear the most

 Hellingley abandoned asylum by andre govia

“Its the loneliness thats the killer”

Photo by andre.govia

The National Stuttering Association Convention was amazing. Even though I’m not a person who stutters, I had a week of epiphanies.

With avoidance reduction therapy for stuttering, we challenge people who stutter to do what they fear the most whether it be openly stuttering while giving a presentation or purposefully stuttering when introducing yourself. What’s the worse that can happen?

While I was sitting on the edge of Lake Erie, trying to figure out my life, I had the following conversation in my head:

What do I fear the most. Being alone. That’s why I hate grocery shopping because it accentuates my status of being alone. Alone. So much of my effort is to stave off the existential fear of loneliness.

How do I jump in and do what I fear the most? How do I embrace loneliness?

I’ll plan a trip. I’ll take a journey in which I am alone and can delve into enjoying the world by myself. No blogging. No twittering. No texting. Just absorbing. Journaling. Praying. Pondering.

What kind of trip do I want to take. I could go camping. I’m sure Whitney’s family would let me borrow a tent and some gear. I’ll do it when I get back from Tennessee. It needs to be somewhere conducive to swimming and cycling.

I wonder who would want to go on my alone trip with me?

Perhaps this is going to be harder than I thought.